Well the last time i blogged i was visiting my mum and it seems i’ve just not left, i’m still here. Now there are lots of reasons why? The biggest being i just don’t wanna go back to Newcastle. I came up with that conclusion after i found myself searching through the chad for houses!! Its really hard for me up there, don’t get me wrong the house is great and the family life is even better. I just can’t cope with the location. Some women just must be built for army life. This girl just isn’t. I am so used to people being around me and Leyla all the time. I like the thought of being able to walk out the house and do whatever i feel like. In Newcastle it just isn’t possible. I don’t drive so i’m fucked. I spoke to Jonathan about it so i’m moving back, if it makes me and Moo happier and Jonathan has to travel again then so be it, we’ve done it before and we can do it again.
I’ve had some bad news, Jonathan has to got to Afghanistan in June. I’m really scared and don’t want him to go. It doesnt help that it is his first tour and it’ll be the longest he’s been away from home. The usual tour time is 6 months but he has been told he’ll only be there for 4 months. It is the British Army though so i don’t get my hopes up!!
I get mad when i think of the reasons he’ll be going. The truth is he joined the army to do things for his country not some fucker elses. Now he’ll be flying out there and fighting for reasons that have nothing to do with us. He be in dangerous situations because of thoughtless people. It all comes down to someone elses fight and fucking religion!! It make me sick!!!
Anyway after that rant i have to go. All my thoughts go out to our soldiers over seas who fight for a lost cause. X x x x
